I use to feel a tiny bit unworthy but…

I use to feel a little unworthy because even though I have had some challenges in life and in business I really do not work that hard to do what I do for a living. I have always loved sales and actually my first real job was in sales. As a child I worked for my dad in the tree care industry but I did not consider that a real job because he did not pay me(go figure). I felt unworthy sometimes because even when things got hard there was something inside of me that would rise up and give me the strength to go on. I did not know what this was at first and then I realized that with everything I went through I had people in my life that would give me advise, or they would tell me about a book I  should read, or I would be shown a motivational video or I would go to a seminar or just talk to God. I felt a little unworthy because some things came so easily for me, like talking to people or standing up for what I believe in or having the energy to keep going in difficult times. Now there are some people that are just born into very fortunate situations but I was not one of them. I was born into a difficult, depressing and abusive family. Then one day I realized that I am worthy just because………..I am worthy because even though I was born into a bad situation I made a choice to use the energy and brain that I was blessed with to seek out mentors, read books, go to seminars, pray and actually take the advise that was shared with me by some wonderful men and women. I am worthy because I chose to look at  my father and realize that he was a great example of what I did not want in husband. However I also chose to look at him and learn that even though he was a horrible person he was a hard worker and he could be very charming when he wanted to be and that it was important to work hard and make people laugh. I am worthy because I learned from my mother that in life you have a choice to either stay or leave a bad situation. My mother put up with the physical and mental abuse from my dad. She would sit in the kitchen with a bloody and swollen face and look at me and tell me not to be like her. She told me to go be somebody. She told me that I should get an education and read books. She even went so far to say “Don’t you be like me” and sure enough I am nothing like her but I did learn that even though at the time I thought it was weakness, that it does take a weird type of strength to stay in a situation like that (I  do not want that kind of strength).  I am worthy because I chose a profession that is very lucrative and uses my natural abilities. I chose to LISTEN to my heart AND my instincts and  married a nice guy that is a bit of a geek and has an amazing heart. I chose to get rid of people in my life that are toxic. I chose to keep going even when I felt liked quitting. I MADE THOSE CHOICES THEREFORE I AM WORTHY!!!

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