It still hurts…

It took so long for us to be cool

but we got there.

Our family has issues but you were always a shining light.

You cared, you loved, you tried.

Even when the crazy ones hurt you, you tried to love them anyway.

It still hurts.

My sister, my friend, my babies Auntie Ruthie…oh how they love you.

My tears mean I still love you and I always will.

My tears mean part of me still thinks itā€™s not fair that one of the good ones is gone and yet the nut job is still here.

My smile means I still see and feel you in my life.

It still hurts…because you are gone.




Food…Seek and you will find….

This journey is important to me and I am committed to making good choices regardless of where I am at.

I took my daughters and their friends to Six Flags yesterday and I was dreading lunch because I assumed that all they had was pizza, funnel cakes and hotdogs. However I still made it a point to look for better choices. I actually asked 2 of the people that work there if Ā they knew of a place where I could get a salad or a veggie burger. Both said they did not but for some reason I felt that there had to be some better choices so I asked another worker if she knew of a place that had better options and she pointed me in the direction of a place that had veggie burgers, salads and fruit cups. Ā Now I will admit that the options were better choices however they were still low grade compared to what you can get at the grocery store. I felt better because I sought out better choice instead of accepting the old pizza and corn dog routine. When it comes to healthier choices…seek and you will find:)



Vegan pancakes

I am noticing some very good changes in my body and in my health. I have to admit I don’t know if this is good for me or not but it was so yummy. My daughter made vegan pancakes and I ate them. As far as my weight loss journey is concern I am slowly going down which is good and I’m not fluctuating up meaning up 2 or 3 pounds down 2 or 3 pounds now it’s a matter of one pound or so. I am so looking forward to the end of April, my goal is to get out of the 200s by April 30th:)