Today started off so awesome and ended not so awesome. I did not use it as an excuse to over eat or to indulge in unhealthy foods. I am now at home and I stayed positive until the very last minute of my work day…however now that I am home I kinda want to whine and complain about how this or that did not go right but I know from experience that does not do anything to help the situation. So I am releasing this day and looking forward to tomorrow. To those I let down today I will apologize and to those that let me down I forgive you. Life is amazing even when it doesn’t feel so amazing. It really is all good and I must remember that. I feel better already:)
There is this fascination with starting things off in the new year which I do understand however I am choosing not to participate. I am choosing to start or should I say continue with this years resolution. I am continuing with my goal of working out, loosing weight and making more money(providing more and better service to the market place). I believe that by tweeking my goals and staying on my original plan (this years resolution) that I will get further ahead. I have fallen off the wagon of my goals several times this year but I tried not to beat myself up mentally and emotionally. By doing this I can honestly say that I have been more active this year than I have ever been in the last 15 years. I have had more fun, participated in unique activities, kept my kids active and have over come obstacles better because of my decision to stick with the plan even if I fall off for a while. Let’s continue with our original resolution and on January 1 continue to build on what we have accomplished this year even if we feel that we did not accomplish as much as we should have. We can still hit the gym, eat clean and provide more and better service in the market place on a daily basis. My goal is to keep my goals, build on my progress this year and make new goals once my current goals are accomplished. Happy Early New Year!!!! Rock on:)
I am actually looking forward to the challenges of the fall season for me and my weight loss journey! The reason it is a challenge is because in the next 2 months there are 3 family birthdays in October, 1 birthday in November followed by Thanksgiving. For most people this may not be a challenge however for me it is because I love food and we always celebrate with food. I know I will make good choices and I have already made up in my mind that I will enjoy the holidays with my friends and family but I will only choose healthy proteins and veggies and I will only eat half of my desert. I am mentally preparing right now so that I will not fall off of my new healthy lifestyle program. I must mentally prepare now because in the past I was the type of person that would fall off of my diet and I would use that as an excuse to keep messing up for the following days, weeks and months. But those days are over. I am making good choices because I like the way I feel when I eat clean and healthy foods. I do not want to stuff myself because I like having energy and when I stuff myself my energy goes south. I will rise to the occasion and continue on my journey to healthier, happier, leaner and sexier me!! Rock on!!
Today is turning into a great day, not because anything great is happening but because this has started off as a horrible day however I am choosing to make it a great day. We have a choice!! I mean if you were to sit me down right now at 1:30 Saturday afternoon and ask me what was so great today I would have to say nothing but you know what I will never say that because regardless of the craziness….there is always more good than bad in this world…that is a fact. So what is good on a day like today. My good is that I have the ability to type (right now), beautiful family, I am breathing, great friends, I can walk and talk, compassion for others, a positive attitude and the ability to think, plan and demand that any challenges that I am facing right now will be absolutely miniscule next week, next month or next year. I actually feel better right now because I choose to feel better:) Life is good!! Rock on!!
I use to feel a little unworthy because even though I have had some challenges in life and in business I really do not work that hard to do what I do for a living. I have always loved sales and actually my first real job was in sales. As a child I worked for my dad in the tree care industry but I did not consider that a real job because he did not pay me(go figure). I felt unworthy sometimes because even when things got hard there was something inside of me that would rise up and give me the strength to go on. I did not know what this was at first and then I realized that with everything I went through I had people in my life that would give me advise, or they would tell me about a book I should read, or I would be shown a motivational video or I would go to a seminar or just talk to God. I felt a little unworthy because some things came so easily for me, like talking to people or standing up for what I believe in or having the energy to keep going in difficult times. Now there are some people that are just born into very fortunate situations but I was not one of them. I was born into a difficult, depressing and abusive family. Then one day I realized that I am worthy just because………..I am worthy because even though I was born into a bad situation I made a choice to use the energy and brain that I was blessed with to seek out mentors, read books, go to seminars, pray and actually take the advise that was shared with me by some wonderful men and women. I am worthy because I chose to look at my father and realize that he was a great example of what I did not want in husband. However I also chose to look at him and learn that even though he was a horrible person he was a hard worker and he could be very charming when he wanted to be and that it was important to work hard and make people laugh. I am worthy because I learned from my mother that in life you have a choice to either stay or leave a bad situation. My mother put up with the physical and mental abuse from my dad. She would sit in the kitchen with a bloody and swollen face and look at me and tell me not to be like her. She told me to go be somebody. She told me that I should get an education and read books. She even went so far to say “Don’t you be like me” and sure enough I am nothing like her but I did learn that even though at the time I thought it was weakness, that it does take a weird type of strength to stay in a situation like that (I do not want that kind of strength). I am worthy because I chose a profession that is very lucrative and uses my natural abilities. I chose to LISTEN to my heart AND my instincts and married a nice guy that is a bit of a geek and has an amazing heart. I chose to get rid of people in my life that are toxic. I chose to keep going even when I felt liked quitting. I MADE THOSE CHOICES THEREFORE I AM WORTHY!!!
Today was absolutely amazing. Nothing particular spectacular happened today. However today felt special because the results of staying more consistent with eating clean, getting sleep, exercising and choosing not to worry about business stuff paid off with me having more energy and clarity in my thinking. I volunteer to teach a 3rd grade class at church and I was not tired by the end of class. I came home ate a healthy lunch (large green salad with veggies on top) then I worked out for an hour(3pm dance jam class at Lifetime with Roz and Audrey…they rock!). Then a friend was at the gym after class and invited me to play squash. I played squash for an hour (ridiculously amazing workout). Then I came home and made a healthy homemade dinner and hung out with my husband and kids and watched the original Karate Kid!! Ralph Machio was “the man” back in the day. I know for a fact that if this had been a few months ago I would not have had the energy to be fully engaged in these activities because my eating habits and my exercise routine were inconsistent. I hope that seeing how many times I have tried and failed at getting fit that others like myself will come to realize that it doesn’t matter how many times you try and fail because in life you really never fail until you give up and I can assure you I will never ever give up and neither will you!!! Rock on!
This really is it. Now is the best time to do anything and to work towards your dreams. What ever “it” is will not become anything without us realizing that “this is it” and now is the time to make “it” a reality. I know this to be true in all aspects of life. For now my “it” is the reality of having a lean and healthy body. My “it” is my life(family, friends, business and stuff). My dreams are becoming a reality in front of my eyes and that is really exciting and in many ways I am already living out my dreams(great husband, amazing kids and a business I love) however when I dreamed of living this dream I am living now I did not dream of living with weight issues. Yes, I am doing something about that right now however I must admit that I have worked hard on the dreams that have come true and on the ones that are beginning to come true but I never made a plan or even tried to work on my fitness. Sure I would work out a little here and there but it was never a priority like it is now. I know that for some carrying extra weight is no big deal but for me it is because I feel that my body is a gift and it is my duty to take the better care of it. Kinda like the philosophy of “this life is a gift from God and what you do with is your gift back to God.” I love the thought of living life leaner and healthier. As a wife and mother I think it is important to realize how important your health and weight is to you and your loved ones. It amazes me how many people will take care of businessn in business but because of their health and weight they are too tired to take care of “business” in the bedroom. I have always enjoyed intimacy with my husband however since I have been taking care better care of my body I have more energy and I find that I feel sexier(I always felt sexy:)) but now I feel sexier. lol. So what does that have to do with “this is it” well in my humble opinion to many people are waiting for the right time, right day or right moment and I just feel that the time is now…THIS IS IT…chime in Kenny Loggins…….lol
I am loving the direction my life is taking. I love my life and this weight loss journey has helped me to love it even more. I wish people really understood how powerful eating clean and exercising is. I was just driving yesterday and felt good but something felt a little off then I realized that I hadn’t been to the gym in 4 days because of a snow storm here in Atlanta so I called up one of the women I met at a zumba class and asked her if she wanted to go play tennis. She said yes. We went and played and had so much fun. Now mind you we are not very good in fact we both just started taking lessons in November but still it was great hitting the ball and running around the tennis courts like awkward preteens. I mention this because last night before bed I was tired and a little sore from my little tennis excursion however when I woke up this morning I felt amazing and I slept really well. I felt off yesterday because I have made it a habit to go to the gym and workout 5 days a week and because I hadn’t for 4 days I felt something was off. I also have been eating clean for a while and I do not eat much gluten however when we were snowed in I made pancakes 3 days in a row and even though I only ate 1 each day (ok, 2 on the 2nd day) it still made me feel heavy and mentally a little foggy. I am not a trainer, dietician, doctor or anything like that. I am just a wife, mom and entrepreneur however I would venture to say that if more people would just exercise and eat clean there would be less need for antidepressants and obesity would become a thing of the past. My heart aches sometimes when I think of how I let myself go for so long however I do not focus on that. I am staying focused on the fact that I a moving in the right direction now and for that I am thankful. Have a rocking day!
P.s There are now excuses…even though we were snowed in most of the week I still got out 1 of those days and walked around my neighborhood in the snow. Walking in snow is a great work out and I did get my heart rate up even though I could not go very fast. Because of the effort it took to trudge through snow I got a nice workout. I just really like my gym and I missed it because it is finally a habit:)
Okay I know I said was not going to be a slave to the scale. However this morning I was feeling really good I felt really light so I got up got on the scale and I was actually down 1 more pound. I’m having a great day however I will not weigh myself again until March 1st so this month I’m just going to continue to work out, eat clean, pray and lose more weight. Now physically even though I’m feeling really good, as a business woman I’m having kind of a crazy day. I will not let these feelings guide me to the nearest Pancake House or chili cheese dog place, I just understand that I’m feeling kinda crazy right now (business wise) but that in the end everything will work out. I just have to stay focused and have fun! Have a rocking day;)
That is what I saw on the scale today and the funny thing is I do not remember if it said 189 or 189.5 all I know is that I am out of the 190’s. Eat clean and work out and the results will come. I know there are people out there that loose weight using the latest diet trend but I really want to do this by making small changes that will add up to big changes in the long run. In other words this is not a fad or trend for me…this is a new lifestyle. I met a nice lady the other day, she was 75 and looked like she was 50 and she said as soon as she gets up she puts on her work out clothes. She said she has been doing that for over 40 years and she said that is how she stays in good shape. Oh yeah and eating clean:) Have a rocking day.