Still holding at 206 and happy…

I am happy to be holding at 206 because it is that time of the month and usually I am 2lbs heavier when I start but not today. Today I am holding and moving forward. Once I heard Tony Robbins suggest having a salad for breakfast and that is exactly what I did this morning. I am having a salad and later today I will do yoga or some interval training for 7-10 minutes.  I am not trying to impress anyone with how much or how little I can do. I am actually just hoping to inspire and encourage someone to come on this journey with me no matter where they are right now.  I know if I can do it you can too!

P. S. I do not delete posts that contradict where I am at right now with my dietary choices. I welcome you to check out how I vacillate between vegetarian, vegan and pescatarian….I still feel a mostly vegan lifestyle is best for me right now because I like the way I feel however I have adopted the term veganish because I like eggs….(singing) I   like   large   eggs   and I can’t deny….lol!!!

My Belly is going down…

Still teetering between 206 and 207….progress feels good. I am moving more and of course being mindful of what I eat. Today I am going to go scuba training today. So much fun. Helpful hint: find fun activities that interest you that also happen to involve physical activity:)

We Can Do Better

We all can do better. I will continue to reach out to hurting people. I will continue to speak up on social media. I will continue to work hard. I will continue to volunteer and seek more opportunities to volunteer. I know I can do better. I can reach out to people with views that differ from mine. I can speak up against injustice in my community. I can make sure I help people get to the voting booth. I can say I love you to more people. I can get off of the phone and listen a little more. I can exercise more. I can do better.

We can do better and we have to do better.  What is happening now is a result of years of neglect to our educational system, rural areas and poor communities.  We have neglected women and we have vilified Black men and White men. Not all Black men are unemployed misogynistic criminals and not all White men are racist misogynistic white supremist.   People that are hurting or feel misunderstood will many times cling to anything and anyone that will give them hope (even it doesn’t make sense to you or I). Your neighbor that helped you, dined with you and supported you and your dreams is also the same person that may have voted differently than you did. Please listen to them. People are hurting. People are feeling misunderstood. We can do better.

Yes, we can do better. Yes, there are people that are racist. Yes, there are people that are rapist. Yes, there are people that lie on both sides and from all walks of life. Yes, the bad people and I do mean really bad and hateful people do exist. They exist but they are not the majority. Most people are good. I believe in the good and I will stand up against the bad. We forgot how powerful a hug and a smile can be. We forgot how important it is to be nice. I am going to fight against hate by embracing love and compassion. I will speak up against hurtful rhetoric by pointing out the good in us all.  When possible I will ask “why do you hate me” and I will hopefully help them discover a reason to love me.

We can do better…our future depends on it.

Feeling really blessed

I am feeling really great right now.  Today has been an amazing day. I was able to spend the whole day with my family because of the weather.  School was canceled because of the weather and both me and my husband had light schedules so we all just ran errands and hung out together. 

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Today we are also getting the cabinets in our house finished and our kitchen was unavailable for dinner so our friend invited us to her house to hang out and have dinner and it was absolutely amazing.  Life is good!

Thankful for the pain:)

I am thankful for my family
I am thankful for my business
I am thankful for my ability to persist
I am thankful for my life….

The pain and the process…there are some people that just get it. They make fewer mistakes. They make a plan and follow with very few distractions…that is not my story.

The pain:

My father was an abusive ass. My dad was charismatic and funny. My dad was a lying delusional idiot. My dad was a very intelligent and resourceful person.  I am thankful for the pain of growing up with a father that was a living example of Dr. Jeckl and Mr. Hyde. Why because being in that environment allowed me to know what I did and did not want in a husband.  Growing up in that environment also allowed me to be sensitive to other people that come from abusive situations but it also provided me with the insight that, if we choose, we can have a better future if we make better choices.

The pain:

We had the opportunity to grow up in a decent socioeconomic environment but we also had parents that did not manage money well. I was introduced to the mlm industry where I had great mentors but I also was introduced to some of the sleziest people you could ever meet.  I was also introduced to some of the smartest,  kindest and successful people.  I learned the value and importance of building wealth. I dedicated 7 years of my life to a company that eventually wound up in the toilet.  Painful.  But seeing that happen inspired me to REALLY start my own business. Thankful!

The pain:

Watching my dad go to work every day and work from sun up to sundown, regardless of the weather or circumstances, instilled in me a strong work ethic. My dad making us work with him as elementary aged children instilled resentment which turned into fond memories with my sisters and brother.  Being dedicated to a marketing company that was environmentally conscious gave me a bigger appreciation for the planet we call home.  Working with a company that instilled the importance of hard work,  consistency and vision helped me to keep going even when times got hard.  Watching that company become a cest pool of lies and manipulation helped me to discover the type of people that I did not want to be around.  The pain was worth it. The pain had a purpose.  I am happy now because God gave me the strength to overcame the pain and for that I am thankful!

I love being a wife

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Call me crazy, call me old fashioned, call me antiquated, call me antifeminist(I’m not)….I call me happy.  I am an entrepreneur however I am also a wife, mom and just a plain ole’ woman:)  There are days in my business where I do not have to be up early and instead of getting up frantically with my husband to get the girls ready I can lay in bed a little longer. I lay there and watch my husband come back from his shower all fresh and clean with his body glistening with water and his hair damp on his head and his towel wrapped around his waist. I watch him…I watch him drop the towel….and proceed to put his clothes on while nonchalantly asking me about the jobs we have on the schedule.  Sometimes he will drop the towel and ask “do we have time”…knowing that we don’t and the kids are up and in the other room but it brings a smile to my sleepy face.

I love the feeling that I get thinking about how hard he works to make sure our family is ok. I love knowing that even though he sometimes doesn’t understand the mental pressure that I am under that he does know I hate to do dishes and he does them more often than not.  I feel taken care of, loved, appreciated and admired.

Omg!!! He makes me so mad sometimes because we think so different.  I am the “we are gonna do this” person and he is the “how are we going to do this” person. I am the “just do it” person and he is the “where are the resources to do it” person.  This has been the case since the beginning of our relationship and it is the reason I am still sane and it is also the reason he has more fun in his life.

I love that warm and comfy feeling I get when he spoons me.  I love that flutter in my heart when I hear the garage open signaling he is home.  I love having a loving father for my children.  I love that even though I work outside the home there are just some things that I just don’t and don’t have to do…i.e. fix things, take out the trash, get up when there is a strang sound in the middle of the night and pick up heavy stuff.

I love being a wife. Why would a guy want to be with or marry a woman whose mantra is “I don’t need a man.”  Words are powerful.  In reality we all can figure out how to get along without a partner in life but life is so much sweeter with someone to love and someone who loves you.

I know some people have had love and lost it or maybe something happened to their special person but those memories of their loved one is still special.  I pray that everyone finds love and that that love will endure forever.

I love being still in love after 12 years of marriage.  Happy Valentines Day Morgan!

Did it once doing it again!

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Yep a year ago lost 20lb...gained it back...

This is so hard for me to look at…but I know I only have myself to blame….I can not even think of fitting into those jeans today but by May I will be back in them. Twenty pounds may not seem like much but on a 5’4 frame it is a lot to gain back. I am sharing this to help others along the way but the main reason is to hold myself personally and publicly accountable to myself. This really is not about anyone but me. I know why I gained the weight back. I gained it back because I stopped doing what was working…eating clean and working out. I let stress and various challenges in life change my focus. I actually handle stress better when I eat clean and work out so why did I fall off the wagon…because I bought my own excuses…like:

I deserve to eat this peach cobbler late at night and not go work out because I dealt with a lot of stress today when in reality my thoughts should have been…wow let me go work out to release some of this stress and I will make sure I eat super clean so I can have the energy to deal with lifes issues.

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I am going to eats at my favorite bbq spot and eat mac and cheese and 10 bbq wings dripping in bbq sauce because one of trucks broke down and I am mad…but actually I should have said…I better make sure I continue to eat clean and healthy so I don’t break down.

Or

I sold a lot of jobs today so I am going to reward myself by going to my favorite restaurant and ordering everything on the menu that I like…what I should have done was say wow I am do proud of myself for selling a lot of jobs today so I will finish work early, pack a healthy pic nic and take my girls to the park and play for the rest of the day:)

I could have done so many things differently for the last half of the year but you know what no one ever made progress with coulda, woulda, shoulda so you know what I am going to shake this yukky feeling off and continue on the path that I restarted and focus on the progress I have made in the last 30 days:) In fact today I ate totally clean and I went outside and played with my 8 year old daughter! Rock on:)